Weblog

Wednesday, 30 April 2008

  • Sooooo, yea this is my first time back in like a year almost. Its been a long time and so much has happen, first my boyfriend and I broke up last October, well actually he broke up with me cause we had a lot of issues to work out mainly me though. I have to deal with my rape issue, I was rape by my so called friend in 2004. I never talked about it with anyone really, I guess it was my way of coping even though I really wasn't coping with it at all. I would find myself getting angry for no reason and since my boyfriend was the one I talked to the most I would take it out on him and he just couldnt take it anymore. But at the time I knew what I was doing but I didnt think that it was that bad or it bothered him that much but obviously I was wrong. So after we broke up I started really going to counseling and finding myself, finding out why I do certain things and getting to the bottom of all my issues. But you know at the time I was still really pissed with my ex, because as I saw it, nigga you are suppose to be there through everything and you break up with me when I need help the most. I know that he really could not help me at the time but I still expected him to support me through it all, but thats what I get for expecting someone to be there. But through it all my BFF(love her) was always there and I appreciate her so much, I don't think she knows how much, there are not enough words to explain how much I appreciate her being a TRUE FRIEND. So fast forward to now I dealt with my issues and now my ex and I have gotten back together, but things are not the same and we are still working through some problems, but all in all its better than before, Im actually going to stay with him this summer and Im super excited about that, this whole time we have been together we have not spent more than 2 weeks together. So this will tell us alot about each other and as a couple........pray for me ...lol

Thursday, 19 July 2007

  •     So last night my friend, little sister and I went to the pool for our weekly water aerobics class. After we got out of the pool my little sister decided that she wanted some brownies and so did my friend. So after dropping my little sister off at my parents house we proceeded to Albertons to buy the brownies. I was felling really good about the brownines cause I know that I can cook so making brownies should not be a problem. The last time I cooked brownies back in 05' they didn't come out that well , actually they were cake like, and I hate cake like brownies. So my friend and I followed the directions on the box and placed them in the oven. When they were done , they were cake like, so now Im like WTF What is it about brownies???

     

    So lately I have been trying to find my niche, I found two of them but I think my other one is interior decorating. My bf is in the process of buying a condo, so I thought this is the perfect opportunity to see if this is my niche. So I told him that  I think that this is my niche and I want to design one of his rooms in the condo. So then he was like well you know that my parents have plans to do somethings also. I said ok well what do they plan on doing? He said that they are going to change the facet and put new tile onthe counter tops......but you know my mom she always says that she is going to do one thing and end up doing more than that.... how about yall work on a room together. I said no I want to do it on my own to see if I can, and the other reason I said no is because I don't really like his parents due to the fact of them saying that they don't think that I'm the right person for him, and some other things. So then he was like well this is what we can do, after my parents finish doing what they want to do buying what they want then you can come and do whatever you want. So Im like ok thats fine, but you are going oto have to create some boundaries with your mother. I mean its cool that your mother wants to help but so do I and buy you not letting your mother know that ok you can do this and this, but not that because Christina wants to do this. He is such a MOMMA"S BOY that is the one thing that I can't stand about him. And I will not tollarate that and def  will not happen when we get married. I would like to know you guy's opinion on that situation, am I being inconsiderate and selfish or do I have a right to say that?

     

    OH yea I have a job interview today so pray that it goes well, even though I have already claimed it

    Keep GOD first 

Wednesday, 18 July 2007

  • So later on that day we went back to my sisters house and everyone was so tired, so my parents and my lil sister went to the hotel and went to sleep and my brother older sister and I watched tv until like 2 am. I needed to sleep because we had to get up at 8:30am to eat breakfast and then go to church.... But I actually didnt go to sleep until 4:30 cause I was talking to my sister, about life, boyfriends and school.I was so tired that next morning , I so didnt want to get up.  We went to the church that my mother and father got ordained, yea they are both ministers. The service was very good, but some things I was not really ready for.  For example this lady who had on this crazy looking outfit and was dancing around with the tamborine in her hand. I'm mean it just caught me off guard, then there was this other man who just started doing this praise dance in the front of the church. Growing up you learn not to laugh and look at people crazy who catch the holyghost, and I didn't but I was just not ready for that one. So after church service......note that it was 1:45 yea we were in chuch for 2 hours and 45 mins and it was like 40 degrees in there also. After church we went back to my sisters apt and I finally took a nap(yes!!!!!) . Then I got up and ate and we started on our journey back to Tally. So this morning my boyfriend called me at 7:30am for some reason, but he knows that I'm never up that early if I don't have to be. So When he called I was like "hello, yea hey baby" "What time is it?...7:30" and before I got the chance to say I going to call you back when I wake up his phone hung up. SO I called him back and told him I was going to call him later, but when I did he didn't answer. So then he called me back at 9 something, but i didn't answer cause I was asleep. When I finally do get up to go to work he left a message talking about " I don't like how you answered the phone and acted like you were up and then 2 mins later you were sleepy" So I'm like are you serious? He said yea. So then I'm like out of all the times that you say crazy stuff when you sleep you going to trip about that.  Then he was like "well you and me a are two different people"," I'm like what does that have to do with anything?" So then I was" like fine then Bye" and hung up the phone. I don't know what he is trippin about today but he better get it together. I'm going to give him some time to think about what he said....I know he is going to be like mybad I was trippin. But if he doesn't we are going to have to have a long talk that is going to last forever, just like every talk that we have. Well I guess that is it for now
     
    Keep GOD First

Tuesday, 17 July 2007

  • This Weekend

           I have not written anything since last week I have been hella busy and yesterday I was ust to tired to write anything. But a lot has happen this past weekend Im going to start with Saturday. So Saturday morning I woke up at 5:30am to go to my parents house so that we can leave to go to Atlanta. My lil sister is thinking about going to grad school at Georgia State so we were going to get a tour of the school. We didnt leave until 6:30am, my dad always does that say were are going to leave a t certain time but dont endup leaving untl a hour of so later. SO when we got to Atlanta it was 11:00am and her tour was at 12:00pm, (oh yea my older sister lives in Atlanta) but we didnt have enough time to drive to her house and make it back to the school in time so my lil brother and i sat in the car listing to the ipod. So my parents and my sister got back about 1 1/2 later and when my dad put the key in the car it wouldn't start. So yea my lame brother had the car running the whole time so we had to get a jump. This is not the first time he has done that either he is so lame. So after we got a jump we finally went to my sister house, and i thought that I was actually goiing to be able to lay down for a little bit until we had to go and look for condos with my sister and her boyfriend. BUt I was sadly mistaken, we went to get something to eat at this resturant called "Folks" it was good, I was surprised. After we letf the resturant there was no time to go back to the hotel or my sister apt, so we went str8 to the realtors office. We went to look at 3 different condos, there was only one of them I liked. But what was weird was that my mom kept talking about my sister and her boyfriend are going to get married, and she is planning them to get married like within the next year. What Im a little upset about about is that they meaning my parents are so much more receptive to my sister's boyfriend than mine. I'm like ok well he does make more money than my boyfriend, my boyfriend is doing very well for himself and money does not rate the character of a person. I mean my dad is you know the normal father type doesnt really say to much to the boyfriends, but when it comes to my sister's bouyfriend he is all friendly and shit, it just really rubbed me the wrong way. BUt whatever Im cool about the whole thing cause they will soon see what I see in him. But thats all for now I will finish the rest later today I have to go and take care of some business, Iwill disclose later today.

     

    Keep GOD first

Thursday, 12 July 2007

  •            So last night as I was sitting at my parents house trying to make myself get on the treadmil, and then I decied to switch up my work out. So I called my friend and asked her if she wanted to do some water aerobics. She agreed so we went to the pool at her apartment and made up our work out rountine, we are going to be getting in the pool at least 3 times a week. Well that is the plan, but if not then I will go back to my daily rountine on the treadmil. After getting out of the pool for an hour we were hungry and decied to go to Zaxbys and get a chicken salad. While going through the drive thur a  flying roach ....yes a flying roach flew in my window and over to her side of the car,  then for some reason she rolled up the window. I was trying to figure out why cause it was still in the car, but she swore it wasnt. So then she was like lets just go in, I was ok......as we were getting out of the car the roach emerged from the dashboard inside the car and flew in my friends face. Note that she is terrified of roaches she could'nt say anything .......she was stuttering....lol could not get it out that it was a roach in her face, she jumped out of the car and ran around it screaming..lol I could'nt do anything but laugh at her...lol. By the time I stop laughing at her the roach flew out of the car. We then decied to try the drive thur again no roaches this time because she had the window rolled up until we got to order our food. She always makes me laugh, always good times with her, she is so funny. So my boo and I are doing a lot better , we apologized to each other and are working out our issues. Now we have to figure out what we are going to do about him moving into his condo and about this car accident we got into when I was down ther for the fourth. But Im not stressed out about the situation because I know that God will work it all out in due time. My boo is a little stressed only because he has a lot going on so I have to make sure that he doesnt get to stressed and not try and fight with him over little things. It is such a blessing to know him and to have him in my life. I know that God put him in my life to help me be a better person and him the same. He has helped me take major steps in my life to address many issues that I didnt know how to address at the time. I am so blessed to have him in my life. I love him so much

    Well that's it for today...Keep God first

Top Tags - Weblog

[no tags]